We're in a better place ,

omfg my dream come true.

2010-11-23T16:50:00.001+08:00

I'M GOING TO SS3 ON JANUARY 29 2011 .

i'm so excited ydek , thank you thank you thank you faith for the tickets , i'll be sure to pay you back. we'll be standing in pen B , which is the moshpit & it's soooooo close to the stage , in fact , its kind of like connected to the stage homfg ;~; . Just when I thought my dream would be crushed , a miracle occurred.♥ I'll finally be able to see hae baby & sj + m this is a dream come true , really. i'll see those amazing & wonderful dorks play with each
other , eunhae's solo (can't wait for this!) , the funny & cute vcrs , cooking cooking (one of the main highlights)
& basically , everything about sushow. I can't thank everyone enough , this is equivalent to me scoring 300/300 for my psle which is obviously impossible.

thank you , for everything .

P/S : i love you , lee donghae , more than anything else.

why i love lee donghae. ♥

2010-11-22T16:38:00.000+08:00

Okay so this is a post that is dedicated to hae , my one & only love mmkay.♥ I couldn't get the sushow3 tickets so im fucking depressed.

okay so yes , why do i love him? he's not perfect ( everyone isn't ) , he has flaws , he's just a normal human being. so why do i love him so much?

first off , his voice , is like chocolate okay , no kidding. I die inside every time whenever he speaks / sings / raps / laughs / giggles. he is like ....everything packed into one.

you want evidence? click here. i swear he has the most amazing , beautiful , gorgeous , loveliest voice ever. It does calm me down ;~; .

moving on to his looks ( not that i mind looks ) , He . pwns . almost . everyone.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck , he looks like a god i tell you , this calls for a picture spam.

holy shit this is why i love him okay , baby. <3

I swear he's trying to kill us all , that motherfucking suit makes it better ;~;.

some hae-ass for you? n_____n . fuck i just need that in my life k.

fany hae-pits? - if you hate hairy men , do not fear. Hae shaves 8) .

one of the best pictures. i spy hae-bulge. feel free to stare .

when baby winks i go crazy & i do keyboard spazzings.

kdjkfdgjhskgjksghhnnnggggggg y u do this to me mr lee?

see omfg his smile is so angelic /squishes.

ok , end of picture spam. any of you wnna see crying hae? n_____n.

holy fuck bb crying makes me my heart ache , im serious ;~;

speaking of this gif , his new drama is going to air today!

" it's okay , daddy's daughter" FUCK GOING TO SO STREAM.

above everything , i love donghae for who he is , he never fails to bring a smile to all of us , he never makes us disappointed & i love him to bits. maybe i'll meet him one day , maybe now's not the right time. but whatever it is , i'll love him the same . <3

so fucking worried.

2010-11-20T23:51:00.000+08:00

okay so ss3 ticket sales began & i didn't get the tickets. It's only the FIRST day of priority booking. I'm so fucking pissed right now. Sistic & RITS can gdiaf . Going to try my luck again on the 23rd , i hope i'll get the tickets like seriously . T______________________________________________________________T.
so bloody unfair. 5000 tickets is OBVIOUSLY not enough , because of the massive stage. & I realised real elfs ( the non-ahlian ones) , they don't get their tickets lmfao. ugh thats like half of the entire sgelfs 8| . I don't think I can sleep for this whole week , so bloody scared .

picture spam.

2010-11-18T12:38:00.000+08:00

I had superloads of fun at universal studios singapore yesterday! spent all my money on gifts & food , $71 all gone. my heart ached , i swear ;~; . so..I woke up at like 7AM , left the house around...8.45? & then took a cab to sentosa.

We took the jurassic park ride first & what the fuck , totally wet . The last part is fucking scary i swear , but super fun k \O/// . ummmmmmmm had lasagna for lunch , pizza as well. Thanks aunt choo for helping us to pack drinks & snacks . <3 she packed bread , pocari sweat , special sweets , poncho & lots of other stuffs before-hand , so sweet of her lah please.

After lunch we walked around for awhile , went to sci-fi city , then later went to take the mummy ride . FUCKING SCARY & DAMN ASSHOLE PLEASE , felicia cried while queuing up cause she was scared & it was so damn dark inside i swear to lord .

So we went into the seats & it was so fast lah damn it. I closed my eyes then bend down along with feli , then suddenly i look up cause not the scary part yet. SUDDENLY I TURN TO MY RIGHT I FIND A FUCKING MUMMY SPRAYING WATER FROM ITS MOUTH TO MY FACE , it landed on my specs , ugh .

Thenthen its damn scary i shouted back at the mummy & then suddenly theres this HUUUUUUUGE drop so i was like fuckfuckfuckkkkk LOLOLOL , k then later my tears came out LMAO /loser/.

OKAY THIS IS PART ONE OF MY POST LOL KTHXBYE

graduation day.

2010-11-17T20:51:00.000+08:00

so ...it's grad day tomorrow. I'm going to miss every single taonanite ): I'm going to miss 6C. I'm going to miss choir so fucking much it hurts so badly. now someone talks to me as if im not important to them. this sucks big time . I'm going to miss my friends , i always claim to not have friends but to be honest , i have friends . they're like my life , without them , i couldn't have survived school. Sureeeeeeee , im not popular , but i dont need to be popular ok , i just know that people are always behind me & those people are . my . friends .

maybe this doesn't apply to some of you , but being in a mixed school is wonderful. You have people from all walks of life , different genders , different people , different tastes. I love all of my schoolmates & sometimes , school may suck reallyyyyyyyy badly , but im sure it does have its good points too.

going to blog about my universal studios trip later or tomorrow.

universal studios tomorrow!

2010-11-17T00:27:00.000+08:00

Once again , edits aren't mine . Finally! tomorrow I get to go to universal studios with Vanessa & Felicia , can't wait omg! :) so yeah this is basically a reaaaaaaally short post , will update with photos' from the outing tomorrow , see you guys!

hae hae you you.

2010-11-14T21:21:00.000+08:00

lol boy waylt ;~; my heart melts everytime I see you sobs , OHYES! Nov.18's our 2nd year "anniversary" , not really an anniversary , but it marks the day I started stanning you hard , I can't wait no more , baby .

maybe it's just me , but I absolutely can't wait to see you for supershowthree. i want to see you face-to-face so badly ydek.

& p/s : im so fucking jealous of hyuk , he gets you every night /bricked.

theres one less lonely girl.

2010-11-12T14:56:00.000+08:00

finally there'll be a person who'll love me for who i am , for who i truly am. not the online me , but the real me . thanks for everything , baby . <3 i'm not forever alone finally omg , 12/11/10 , best day ever omg ;~; .

short post heh.

happy day omg

2010-11-11T22:01:00.000+08:00

sobs okay i was officially addicted to editing sica's photos because she's so flippin' gorjess ;A; . Same with jeti omg they're lovely , as always 8) . & YOONA SOBS , SORRY MY WAIFU I'VE BEEN NEGLECTING YOU u____u . spot : Yulsic & Sunyeon @ the last edit!

these pictures belong to thsutleo & therefore I do not own any of these pictures. I only edit them , they can also be found on my tumblr : fishae @ tumblr

messed up.

2010-11-10T16:22:00.000+08:00

I feel as if I'm wasting my 11:11 wishes on you . Deep down in my heart , those wishes were for you & you only . But it seems like you can't fulfill them at all . Now that you have your special someone , it's worthless for me to have a crush on you . I'm just giving myself false hope that one day , I'll be able to catch your eyes for a moment. But from now onwards , my 11:11 wishes will no longer be for you .

Happy 5th Anniversary , My Boys .

2010-11-07T22:53:00.000+08:00

Super Junior . It's finally your 5th Anniversary , Aren't you proud you made it all the way to this point of time? I sure am . I may not have been to any of your super-shows , I may not have gone to your showcase , I may not have bought all your albums , but on the inside , I feel so proud of all of you , it doesn't matter how many albums I bought , but whatever happens , I'll be there to support all 15 of you . 13 + 2 = Family .

You all may not be complete physically , but mentally , you all are one . From Leeteuk to Kyuhyun , or should I say , from Leeteuk to E.L.Fs , we are all family . I am so proud to say that I belong in this fandom , & I will belong in this fandom forever . This is my longest fandom to date , & I can't wait to see you in concert this January 29th.

I may be 12 & I may be one of the youngest fans around here , but does it make a difference? I'm still a fan , not an ordinary fan , but a fan that will support you guys for eternity.

look at this carefully .

This showcases your achievements from this year . 2010 is definitely not your year , but you worked hard , very very hard . My heart aches to see you all working so fucking hard every time , putting in your best , not just for E.L.Fs but also your family & your friends & even yourselves.

It's great that Super Junior is leading in the Disk Bonsang Category , I am so so so so proud of every single one of you .

Happy 5th Anniversary , Super Junior.

edits edits.

2010-11-04T21:55:00.001+08:00

all these pictures belong to their original owners & I edit them only for entertainment purposes & fun .

well , take me seriously because I don't want to be caught for anything . HAHAHA omg i sound weird.

but yes all these edits are done by me & me only .

pure love f(x) !

2010-11-04T16:25:00.000+08:00

so , f(x) has their new reality show , Koala which is airing now on MBC . It's pretty awesome , ngl . i love jungli so fucking much ydek . um yeah but there ain't no amber ;~;

yknow krystal is so gorgeous i cant even .

wtfoo sulli is so adorable n__n.

one of my favorite pairings !!111

/SQUEEEEE.

okok so yes end of my spam n___n /is that even considered a spam? idek

new theme.

2010-11-03T18:16:00.000+08:00

hello everyone , i'm back - with a new skin! pretty customized if you ask me :)

lmao if I dressed up for halloween as a strawberry , wouldn't it be right to paint my nails like that too?

mmhmm i like fashion photos' & everything , pretty useful & im getting a hang of lookbook now.

I wonder how all these people do their nails so nicely , i mean seriously lmao.

nails are like my life right now , they're so pretty & speaking of nails , I bought

new colors already , from O.P.I & Sally Hansen , although I prefer O.P.I .

Bought the Shrek & Alice In Wonderland collection . Got one India-themed one too.

okok , enough of nail talk !

Day 26.

2010-10-28T20:47:00.000+08:00

Day 26 - What You Think About Your Friends .

I think they're awesome but sometimes , they can be such bastards . Sometimes I want to kill them & sometimes a part of me just wants to apologize for everything i've done & i'll try to understand better . ~~they called me mature when i said their family thing was stupid~~ , urgh .

just no.

2010-10-28T17:51:00.000+08:00

How can I let my emotions take over me , why can't I control it properly? I feel like i'm living another person's life . I am an outcast , once an outcast , always an outcast. If I could rewind the time , I certainly would . To be honest , I am not okay with jjong dating. He's already at the peak of his career . But I'm happy that he followed his heart & decided to go public with it . My friends don't like me anymore , they talk behind my back & i always end up becoming an outcast . O right , nobody wants to talk to me anyway. I hate animal abusers & they give me a reason for me to hate people alot . I know i'm going off-topic , but who fucking cares anyway . i feel inferior to other people , especially those better than me . I know if i'm going to go to secondary school , one day i'm going to slit my wrists & all the blood comes out then i'll die. thanks for reading this piece of crap

omg.

2010-10-27T16:59:00.000+08:00

okay , so shin se kyung & jjong bb are dating . I was like , " what? you serious?" & it's confirmed. It feels so weird because she looks more mature than him , but they're of the same age . Anywho , i think they're a cute couple but it feels really , really weird. but if jjong's happy , i'm happy for him as well. to be honest , I cannot even imagine one of my biggest biases in kpop getting a girlfriend , i miss 2008 kpop , really , really , really much .

his hand clutching her arm , o god. lmao , today's a really bad day for me as well . by the way , i'm not feeling very butthurt , but you need to understand that he's my bias & yeah , i died alittle inside . & , he's really happy isn't he?

i hope you enjoy your dating life right now , jjong , cherish it , but please do more skinship with onew i miss you alot now.

Day 25.

2010-10-27T16:42:00.000+08:00

Day 25- What I would find in your bag.

Probably a bottle of water , my phone , sj photos' , collectibles , my camera ( A MUST!) . I don't carry around makeup now because i have only afew . & , deodorant , in case i smell bad lol . i'm a pretty boring person ;/

day 24.

2010-10-26T20:31:00.000+08:00

Day 24- A letter to your parents.

Dear Mom & Dad ,

I'm really sorry for not making you two proud all these years . I've been misbehaving alot nowadays , but I really love you two , for bringing me up . Even though you guys divorced in the middle of my childhood , primary two to be exact , I try to be strong. I never really cried , because I know you two would be happier without each other. I cried myself to sleep for 5 years already , & you know what? I think I should stop. To be honest , I think I can't live without you two . I imagine that we're still one perfect , happy family . I am a pure jinx , I secretly read your divorce documents only to find out that i was the cause of your poor marriage life . " their marriage started to dissolve right after their child was born" . I cried so hard when I read that line . I really wanted to close the file but I did not , I continued reading & ended up tearing the pages . I guess you two don't know but , I really hate being alone .

Love ,

Claire.

2010-10-25T21:43:00.000+08:00

i promised sheryl i'll write for her so here it is :

I woke up with a shock , my samsung vibrated , I was half-awake by then , i whipped out my cell phone which was in my pocket , because i have this weird habit of not putting my phone on the side table .
" Oh! there's a text , so early on a damn saturday morning , what is this ," I thought to myself .
" yeobo ah , donghae misses you alot , i'll be back soon & i know you miss me , but don't feel sad , the tour's going to be over soon so i'm coming back in two days , jakiya , i promise , xoxo . "

I immediately d'aww-ed at his message & replied him , " darling , i miss you alot too , come back soon , i love you , & i'll wait ."

that's lee donghae for you , that sweet , caring & responsible guy . he makes sure that you would feel comfortable & warm talking to him & at the same time , he's loving towards you & never makes you feel shy . We're not married , yet , but we're cohabiting together even though our parents disapproves of it . Suddenly , He called me , just barely few minutes after I received his text .

" yeobo ah ~ i miss you so much , you know that texts cannot explain how I really feel right? So I just called up to see if my baby is alright ~ " Donghae muttered , apparently , I could hear the other sj boys in the background .

" aigoo , you really shouldn't have called me , go concentrate on your work , dear. Make me proud & come back home with pride okay ? " I replied in a soft tone , afraid I would disturb my neighbours who just woke up .

two days past by very quickly , instantly & in a flash , Donghae was ringing the doorbell .

" YEOBO AH , DONGHAE IS HOME !!! DID YOU MISS ME? " I opened the door & saw this god , standing right in front of me . I ran up to him & hugged him , I missed him so much , you don't even understand . I love you , Lee Donghae .

god , that was the worst fanfic i've ever written ;~; i'm so sorry sheryl ): I'll make it up to you by writing you another one tomorrow , a better one , mmkay?

argh.

2010-10-24T21:57:00.000+08:00

i miss 2008 kpop alot & i guess all of you others with me will agree too .

argh fuck , did anyone know that i loved shinee & jjong since then? no you didn't .

I miss this okay .

enough of this . 2009-2010 kpop was absolutely fucked up . I hate all the fucking fake fans , nevermind that they're fake , they're also new . bear in mind , You have no right to comment that all of us are noobs or whatever because all of you are motherfucking losers . , "shinee is mine " , "yoona's mine get the fuck away" , " donghae is mine fuck off bitch " , i don't mind that really , but i hate it when people spam me with this type of fucking shit that isn't even cool . okay , stop including all this crap in your tweets . & about tumblr , I may have joined this year in april 2010 , but I enjoy it so much & I hate it when people ask me to promote them . Fuck no , I will never promote you or anyone else . If my followers take me as a promoter , then just seriously unfollow me . I'm so motherfucking pissed with all of you . You may be pissed with me as well but I actually don't really give a fuck if you do .

day23.

2010-10-24T21:38:00.000+08:00

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot.

to be honest , I crave alot of things. I want donghae's autograph & picture if i ever get to go backstage for ss3 . I want to see SNSD & Super Junior on the same stage if possible , I want my studies to be good for once . I want to go back to my original self , the person who loves american celebrities , music & food . I want to be loved by just one person , just one is all i ask for . most importantly , I want to have a complete family .

day22.

2010-10-22T18:36:00.000+08:00

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else.

for starters , i'm an only child & I'm born in the month of January , much earlier than most of my friends. My parents are divorced & no , I don't get jealous when my friends talk about their parents . that's about it . OH WAIT , I'm more mature then my schoolmates kthxbye n____n.

Day21

2010-10-20T20:45:00.000+08:00

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy.

1 - Dimsum , because i love cha siew baos' & siewmais'.

2 - Sushi . Who the hell doesn't love sushi? I love them to bits.

3 - Cup Noodles / Maggie Mee , sobs my lifesavers.

4 - Strawberry Ice-Cream , lovelovelove x infinity .

& lastly , Super Junior.

They always make me happy ide , & seeing them working so so hard , makes my heart ache for all of them . All the members may not be physically with them , but in their heart , I know all 15 of them are together. I may not see them until next year , but I am definitely going to super show 3 , to support them. <3

Day20.

2010-10-19T20:55:00.000+08:00

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future.

to start this off , i'm just writing how I feel , if you don't like what i'm writing , get out of here. Okay , I'm not going to marry him , never ever . But I want a husband like him . Lee Donghae , the man who possesses all the qualities that an average girl wants. Not saying he's perfect , we all have our flaws , no? but I see no fault in him , in my eyes , he can do no wrong . Maybe I'm just biased , but hey , he's cute , gorgeous , lovely , handsome , everything .

If I can get a man who is half as good as donghae , I'll be contented . & In about 10/20 years time , I'm going to see myself married to a wonderful man with a stable job , with twins & a nice house . Not that I'm mature , this is reality . I'm not going to live in Seoul , live in a beautiful townhouse with Donghae with two kids called Lee Cloud & Lee Ocean , NO . So yes , I kinda need to wake up LOL ;~; .

day19.

2010-10-15T21:47:00.000+08:00

Day 19- Nicknames you have & why do you have them.

1 - Clarie : a short ( but not really ) form pronunciation of my name , i guess? it sounds cute though , almost everyone calls me that .

2 - Clarie-Mary : I guess it's the same as the first one , & mary rhymes with Clarie *v*.

3 - Curlaire : Cur = Curly , Curlaire means Curly-Claire , because I used to have Curly hair.

4 - Curly Wurlaire : COURTESY OF DHA FELICIA TEO , nuff' said.

hotel.

2010-10-14T15:16:00.000+08:00

so , my day was pretty awesome ( did not have to deal with those sluts) . & i've fallen in love with Zac Efron's smile~ Don't think he's lame k , high school musical WAS high school musical , current Zac is haaawt.

I gotta go bathe , so stinky after eating all that food at the hotel , part of the dining course , fuck i'm so awesome , won myself a prize because i was stylish & classy . In your face , bitches. ( not boasting but yeah people tend to deny that i'm awesome :< )

day18.

2010-10-14T15:07:00.002+08:00

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have.

1 - meet superjunior during supershow3.

2- write more fanfics / oneshots.

3 - meet my biases & then call then "oppa!" when i meet them,

just as a form of respect .

4 - meet donghae , ~~jonghyun~~ ( I WANT TO MEET JJONG AGAIN!) & yoona in person .

5 - ~~get married to kevin~~ . BLASPHEMY , self-proclaimed married to him already mmkay.

6 - Catch up on my tvb dramas' .

7 - Get into Holy Innocents' High / Geylang Methodist .

8 - Improve on my schoolwork when I get into secondary school.

& of course , hae's warm & loving hug if I get to meet him .

/fantasizes because i'm awesome like that .

Day17.

2010-10-13T14:21:00.000+08:00

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why?

I guess snsd? because they're girls as well & i want to experience how hard it is to juggle schedules & all that jazz. & i know it must be grueling for them to travel to & fro from korea to japan & back . maybe I haven't went through it yet & I don't think I will , but just for once , I want to see how it feels like . & i love you girls . <3

Day16.

2010-10-10T19:51:00.000+08:00

Day 16- Another picture of yourself.

So yeah , here's me . I took this picture yesterday & made it my facebook profile picture :) First time taking these type of pictures , & I have to say I kinda fail at it ;x . & my zits holy mother of macaronis' . Should use a better quality camera next time , dslr hehe .

isn't all about kpop.

2010-10-09T20:51:00.000+08:00

some people need to know that I'm not just all about kpop , I do listen to english songs & Actually , for those people who claim they're a hollywood genius & stuff like that , they're so fucking wrong sometimes . I got into american stuff like real early . Even before I got into kpop ( which was in 2008 ) . I loved the movies ( & I still do ) , the music ( mostly by Lady Antebellum , Maroon 5 , Colbie Caillat , Neon Trees , Paramore etc. ) , & the clothes / fashion / books , everything . I have Lauren Conrad's books too ( L.A Candy , Sugar & Spice ) I can even remember all the old movies , not bragging but some people really piss me off sometimes .

I watched Gossip Girl , 90210 , Glee , How I met your mother & Modern Family ever since the first season came out & I'm still watching all these wonderful shows. Sigh , I miss my old life . By the way , Hannah Montana , Wizards of Waverly Place , Sonny with A Chance & All the new Disney shows are fucking crap. Lizzie Mcguire , That's So Raven , Phil of the future , Even Stevens were classic , shouldn't have cancelled those shows .

Shia Labeouf would've been my imaginary husband by now ;~;

Day15.

2010-10-09T16:54:00.000+08:00

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play.

Song 1 : Break Even - The Script .

Song 2 : Obsession - SHINee

Song 3 : Ride It - Jay Sean.

Song 4 : DJ Got Us Fallin' in Love - Usher feat. Pitbull.

Song 5 : Feel So Good - IU

Song 6 : Copy & Paste - BoA

Song 7 : When I Fall - After School.

Song 8 : Shining Star - Super Junior

Song 9 : Your Name - SHINee

Song 10 : Love Love Love - FT Island .

All my favourite songs :">

I'm tired of all this.

2010-10-08T23:41:00.000+08:00

I wanted to use that snsd picture as my wallpaper but it was like too small & if it was stretched , it'll look pixel-ised which i fucking hate . & its pretty , I think it's part of the Daum Ad Campaign . I downloaded the screensaver(s) & it's mad cute okay! I wish I could screencap it , but hey , its a screensaver.

& I'm so depressed today & annoyed , ydek . Some people hate me but they don't want to admit even though they know that I know they dont like me .

Day14.

2010-10-08T14:15:00.000+08:00

Day 14- A picture of you and your family.

- warning , image heavy.

1 - My dog : this picture was like in March - April (?) & yeah he grew much bigger okay , much bigger.

& i dont think i can seriously live without him , I already cried so fucking much when he was given away , but now he's back so im happy :) & yeah we're most probably going to be forever alone together , for the rest of our lives :">

2- My Aunt & My Cousin ( Charmaine ) : Well , this was taken in Orchard's fish & co. & I wasn't there cause I had school . they too , are one of the closest relatives that I have & I love them alot . & Me , Charmaine , Andrea , Isaac , Nicholas & Melissa usually go crazy together , but i'm like the youngest so yeah. we do laugh alot & me & andrea talk about kpop once in awhile /smiles. & my mother's side of the family IS pretty fun to be with as well , lol my aunt always gives me books to read & she gives me food as well whenever she goes on a trip .

3- My Cousin ( Charmaine ) : Same place as the above photo . She's currently in Australia so I miss her alot . We skype-d once & then she totally took a photo of me with the dog on my bed ( not what you're thinking ) . & yeah , we do go pretty wild & I still miss the times we went to karaoke & made funny faces & used up all your phone memory LOLOL , sigh , i miss you & COME BACK SOON ! 8>

4 - My Cousins ( Felicia , Tricia ) & Me : this was taken last year at my grandma's house , lol we had so much fun back then! & I miss all of you so yeah , NEXT WEEK IM COMING SO NO NEED TO WORRY HAHAHAHHA . <3

5 - Xing Ning : Took this at our house playground , xing ning moved already...i miss her , but i'm glad im still friends with her . I talk to her much , much more now!

LOL I CAN'T TYPE ALREADY .

6 - Tricia

7- Nicholas & My mom.

Day13.

2010-10-06T22:09:00.000+08:00

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

dear you ,

you fucking ruined my life , you are a douche , a fucker , a bastard , a low-life crook , you robbed me of my feelings , i'm human too you know ? unless you're a "human" with no feelings . so what if I like kpop? got a problem with that? whatever there is NO point in talking about you , much less look at you . You look like a zombie , to be honest. You don't have friends & you complain about that , why? because of your bloody-disgusting attitude . continue like this & you won't survive in this world , i assure you .

~~i dont~~ love ~~you~~ ,

claire .

Day12.

2010-10-03T00:03:00.000+08:00

Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one.

Tumblr is really amazing & I could go on talking about this amazing site . Well , for starters , I found out this site through Lia, who has been spamming tumblr quotes & pictures & everything for quite a long time back already . I only decided to join tumblr in like April 2010 ( It's quite late D: ) . I was super emotional on April 1st ( April Fool's Day ) & the next day ( which was a holiday & a friday ) , the sgsficlique girls were going out for a clique outing , I couldn't go so I was really sad . Then for one reason or another , I started thinking back of the times when me & my friends used to stay over at each other's houses & I started to feel really unhappy & lonely .

I was really noob at tumblr , but thank god I knew how to set a theme & all that . I was really inactive during april & start of may . so after the exams I started to spam tumblr & I am still super active on it . Tumblr's not a social networking site , Its not . It's about expressing how you really feel & nobody would care about what you post . It's a carefree place , really . ( EXCEPT FOR THOSE ANONS WHO HATE ON ME D: ) It's a nice place where you can share your thoughts with your followers . Tumblr isn't about followers, likes , reblogs etc. I dislike people who brag about their followers on their tumblog also . Tumblr is also my best friend because I am forever alone , well that's just cause its the relationship status of most people on tumblr ^^v .

Day11.

2010-10-01T19:13:00.000+08:00

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends.

omg this > all the other photobooth photos . Tricia & me! :D

So here's tricia as I promised . This photo was taken last year on jamies macbook . Tricia is a bloody camera hog I swear , nevermind , I still love her! 8> I kind of miss the times we were at jamie's house going crazy & making videos & talking about everything , seriously . I MISS ALL OF YOU PLOX.

health nut much .

2010-09-30T21:19:00.000+08:00

I am so busy , & im going to do my work after this post , i promise . gengs in singapore now , i miss him alot . Apparently , he went to have bah kut teh , without me! sajdkajfkjdgkjrkejg i dont rikes you hangeng . anyway , hes having his showcase & fanmeet ...on saturday? on sunday? Im not sure /noob fan.

by the way , I am being a healthfreak these days , guh , I dont eat junk food anymore , no more macs , no more kfc , no more pizza hut , more water , more boiled stuff . what is life i dont even know .

Day10.

2010-09-30T11:52:00.000+08:00

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad.

I listen to different types of songs actually , I listen to SHINee's Hello ( their new single ) when im happy .

When I'm sad , I listen to Super Junior's In My Dream . It's a really slow & sad song with a nice melody , one of my favourites from the 4jib album :)

When I'm Bored , I just actually put my itunes on shuffle 8>

When I'm Hyped , I listen to Rainbow's A . omg , its like super catchy & addicting after you hear it many many times .

When I'm mad , I listen to Orianthi's According to you . FOR SERIOUS LOLOL.

day 09.

2010-09-29T16:24:00.000+08:00

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days.

sigh , i'd wish to say that im proud of something , like studying . but theres nothing to be proud of these few days , im so f-ed up . HAHHAHHHA , proud of something? Sleeping late.

Day 08.

2010-09-28T15:25:00.000+08:00

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

One - Study harder & Revise more . Two - Try not to skip at least one meal a day , at least three full meals . Three - Try not to go on the computer so much since psles coming . Four - Catch up on Kpop . Five - Work on my singing , its getting rusty after I stopped choir for psle. Six - Do my homework on time.

& why ? you ask me , because I benefit from all these . But I bet I wont accomplish all , September's coming to an end ):

day 07.

2010-09-27T15:51:00.000+08:00

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you.

Him . Lee DongHae , He changed my life . I love him to bits , & im not afraid to express it . I love the way he sings , dances , talks , laughs , everything . I just hope , in January , Back Stage Passes & a Photo with you , that will do . Please let it happen , just once , please? 2 Years of you in my life , everything was worth it . Now , I'll have to study hard to make you proud & everyone else who wants me to do well . November 18 2008 , our anniversary's coming up , baby . I love you & you will forever be part of my life , not joking . You made me realise how important my life is , You made me realise that friendship & love is one of the most nicest things on earth , how could I ever forget ? & your birthday is coming soon , 15th October , Friday . I'll wait for that , I will , & dont worry , I wont cheat.

Day 06.

2010-09-26T12:32:00.000+08:00

Day 06- Favorite super hero and why

Totally Spies.

Are they counted as superheroes ? Because I used to watch their show all the time. It used to air on Disney like every day at 3.00PM & on weekends , they have Back to Back episodes which I miss alot . gah , My favourite's Clover . Why? HBIC = Head Bitch In Charge . Durrrrrr. HAHAHA , no srsly I like these three alot . This is like what , the cartoon version of Charlie's Angels , Jerry Being Charlie . LMFAO , okay . <3

saturday .

2010-09-25T17:33:00.000+08:00

skafjkjfkrjkgjkjg my life is complete /worships otp.

this is a boring saturday , i must say . urgh like I only went out to vivo for lunch , then I came back LOLOL . sigh ,I'll have to start on my work , im going out all the way to seletar later oh my god . daaaaang it .

Day 05.

2010-09-25T16:07:00.000+08:00

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

Marina Bay Sands - Hotel Lobby!

To be truly honest , I dont like it there . Its so mother-fucking crowded . & I actually thought I was at the wrong place when I got there . It looks more like those Genting-type of hotel or Train Station . The service is SO goddamn bad , not going to lie , I dont think I can go there again . But , the pool is great . But heckloads of hairy people I dont like . But one point is that I could see the YOG thingy at the sky park ( the 4minute-BEAST one ) LOL , im so pathetic -_- .

what i think about my classmates.

2010-09-24T23:01:00.000+08:00

what I think about all 31 of my classmates , just cause im bored :

01 - Alaric : I think hes the type of person that gets you irritated , & by irritated i mean very annoyed . He sleeps like almost every minute & he's the type of guy that doesn't do his homework & I dont like him . He's such a blur person & he has like 15 minutes more for every exam paper , also no use.

02 - Aries : I have like an on & off thing with her , like one time i talk to her , the other time I dont . I get annoyed very easily & she makes me want to punch her . seriously , she's like a teachers pet but i dont mind the fact that she likes to help but sometimes when she helps , things get even worse that it already is.

03 - Belda : She's a really sweet girl & I always borrow her correction tape & stapler . & I feel really bad because she is such a nice girl . She was my primary One & Two classmate , so there's like a special bond between us :)

04 - Brandon : I shouldn't be talking about brandy here , but whatever , he got caned by the principal & yeah , vanessa likes him , alot . even though he is kind of a rebel , I think he's a nice guy . He doesn't get angry when I hit him unintentionally & he's kind of sweet in some ways . Vanessa , dont get the wrong idea please.

05 - Bryan : He's a fun guy & an occasional nerd at heart , but yeah , he's my friend.*v* .

06 - Kevin : Oh shit , its him . I had a crush on him in Primary Three but he didn't know . He was in a wheelchair during that time & I pushed his wheelchair around LOL , Now I have a feeling he likes me because he said sorry when I got the last in class for math & no one else did . He always says thank you unlike other boys aside from Daren . So yeah , Im cool with him .

07 - Tashi : Dont even get me started on her . She used the frisbee to vent her anger & then threw it . It hit my head , hard . Sorry , I dont like her & never will .

08 - Me : okay theres nothing to say about me .

09 - Daren : My Best Friend , Classmates in P3 , P5 & P6. Im the closest to him in the class . & he's like 1.30m short or something , but he's so adorable . But , I dont treat him that way , I treat him as a friend & I dont pinch his cheeks unlike the other people . We're called the pwners LOLWHAT .

10 - Claviene : RUDE RUDE RUDE & TO THINK I HAD A CRUSH ON HIM . damn hes one hell of an idiotic guy ;____;

11 - Felicia : She keeps interrupting my conversations & she keeps shouting into my ear , its painful . I guess she's one of my good friends still <3.

12 - Jacelyn : One of the best class-moniters EVER . She's really helpful & she always gets things done right away . We sit on the bus together every morning & she always sleeps . Must be hard for her , poor girl . Fighting !

13 - Haena : OH HAENA HAENA HAENA . you're one of my best friends & even though we fight often , I still love you alot & I think you're nice . Haena is korean & She's one of my best-est friends . She comes to my house often & she was the first to call me when my grandmother passed away . I think she's sweet . & to haena ; YOU ARE STILL COMING WITH ME TO SS3 .

14 - Adrian : I blocked him on msn since the beginning , very irritating . He keeps asking me whether theres homework every day . YOU MONITOR LEY! anyway , hes a good friend of mine.

I stop here , im so tired LOL

Day 04.

2010-09-24T19:12:00.000+08:00

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have.

( im doing two days today because of all the days I skipped.)

It would have to be biting my nails . I always bite my nails when I'm nervous & then the habit got bigger so I started biting them even when i'm not nervous . They look super ugly so im planning to go to the manicurist to get my nails done . & then after psle i would put nail polish . I used to have polish on my fingers but once I started biting , I cleaned them all off . Its a pity , from once gorgeous nails to disgusting half-biten fingernails , stupid of me to bite them . But its a habit . Unless I buy those polish that has this disgusting taste & smell , maybe that will work?

SO PEOPLE , DO NOT BITE YOUR NAILS .

Regarding what Xiaxue said about blogging.

2010-09-24T18:55:00.000+08:00

Okay , So I just watch Xiaxues guide to life video about Blogging & It all makes sense . EVERY SINGLE POINT MAKES SENSE . Now Listen up , I dont like people who hide their music on their blogs because Its damn irritating & What if im listening to my music & your blasty death metal shit comes out & then what do I do ? Okay lor , thats one-turn off . & all your embedded videos on replay & stuff like that , Please go & learn your html before you even dare to put youtube videos / music on your blog because apparently , I have alot of friends who are plain noob .

Second of all , I dont like people who always blog about Love & Emo stuff . You want more people to read your blog , so why you blog about this nonsensical stuff that is not going to happen to you? I know there is no limit whatsoever but If you really want to attract more visitors & increase your daily stats , please just stop all the fucking crap . Think about it , would people be attracted to your blog if all you blog about is emo quotes & love? I dont really think so .

Thirdly , Spamming my cbox isn't going to help either . I know I can't please everyone , but hey , I suck but at least I dont suck dicks like all of you "keyboard warriors " who type like old-school noob shit . PLEASE GET AWAY *v* . I dont need all of your criticisms whatsoever . I may be rude & vulgar, But at least I know right from wrong . You may call me whatever You like , Im fine with it although I may feel alittle sour & start to bite back , its normal trust me . BUT YOU'RE WRONG IN THE FIRST PLACE BY SPAMMING MY CBOX . Some of you even copied my material . Nothing else better to blog ? OUT OF INSPIRATION ? Get your own fucking muse & Copy from her , im no copying machine bitch .

I am vulgar , but you cant restrict what type of language I use right? Even I dont mind the vulgarities on your blogs because its way more than me .

& I hope some of you just use your brains for once, or are you brainless ? :O

donghae spam.

2010-09-24T17:18:00.000+08:00

okayokay , I promised _____ for a donghae spam so here it is .

cant you actually see why minhae is real?

THESE TWO ARE EVEN MORE REAL . minus yesung :>

please bitch , everyone knows hae picked jjong in fbg .

okay qts . sorry biased here. biases biases biases. *v*.

drink more water , pimples are appearing .

omg lipbite /dead.

omg tongue tongue tongue tongue .

LOL what the bastard is this /cries/

omg stalker photo , hot *v*.

I LIKE THIS PHOTO ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT.

I love haetongue ! :>

omg pout right there /faints/

hi there , i love you <3.

omg hes speaking english omg that was my wish HAHA , omg my life is complete for srs.

AND LAST ONE! :D KYUHAE ! \o/

tgif.

2010-09-24T16:16:00.000+08:00

thats my new facebook profile picture , i know its fail . URGGGGGH , but i like my eyelashes , they curl naturally so I dont need no mascara *v* . Personally I like makeup & I am quite expert on it ( not bragging ) , but I dont wear makeup often , im 12 , ridiculous . ANYWAY , I love GLEE SEASON 2 LIKE FOR SERIOUS :)

I freaking love them together . CORY X LEA / FINN X RACHEL :D

Day 03.

2010-09-24T14:58:00.000+08:00

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

from left : felicia & jamie . ( im not in it . )

Hi , my best friends aka cousins for life . Felicia & Jamie , the two people I love the most . 1996 , 1997 , 1998 . 3 Years in a row , we all came into this world , barely knowing each other even though we're cousins . But now , I think we got really close & all those times at Felicia's house & Jamie's house , playing the wii & dancing in Jamie's room . Staying over @ felicia's house , beating douglas up , visiting YWCA , all of us three went together *v* . HAHA , i miss you guys alot . THANK GOD WE'RE F A M I L Y . & yes , I haven't forgot Tricia , ~~our little one~~ our youngest cousin . I dont have your picture here , & i dont have any picture of us four together , but trust me , We'll take one together! PROVIDED THIS MISSY AKA JAMIE WANTS TO TAKE . I love you guys , felicia jamie tricia ;____; <3

busy like a bee.

2010-09-19T20:23:00.000+08:00

finally scanned all my So Nyeo in Tokyo Photobook pictures.

the pictures are so damn HQ & they all look absolutely stunning please . Obsessed with snsd nowadays , & Fany's becoming my top 4 bias soon! Now its like Yoona , Yuri & Jessica . But , forever a yoonyul trooper !

But of course , I love all 9 . & SO BUSY NOWADAYS ;____; /stab.

day two.

2010-09-19T20:16:00.000+08:00

Day 02- The meaning behind your Tumblr name.

Fishae @ tumblr.com means everything to me . Well , fish represents Donghae & hae is the 2nd part of Donghae's name . Doesnt really mean alot to you I guess , but it means alot to me . So , since fish & hae represents Donghae , I combined it to get Fishae . Why only one H ? because Fishhae would look absolutely wrong . I like my words clean & simple . I am an original & idek , some bitch copied my name and put it as fishhae .

& the title of my tumblog is :

ℓOVING YOU .

click on the yellow thingy to go to my tumblr.

it was just so random ;x

no mood oh gosh.

2010-09-18T14:21:00.000+08:00

taengsic !

no mood to blog nowadays , seriously want to die . PSLE LC was so freaking easy I could die just going nuts because It was sooooo easy. Okay , tata.

idiots

2010-09-15T18:03:00.000+08:00

warning : rantahead!

You criticized what I wrote on facebook about kpop & all ? You cant stand people who like kpop? fuck off because its not up to you to decide what we like & dont like. I know moderation is key , but seriously? directed to me & crystal? yeah like we always post about kpop on facebook . shut up if you want to call me crap . My status-es are full of crap , really? You wanted to block me & Crys then I said , " block me then" . then you said you were considering to . WAIT , i thought you wanted to instantly block? You've been tolerating us then why didn't you speak up earlier? I could have not be a sadist & leave facebook since last year & then join tumblr . Oh wait , tumblr is much more interesting then your constant bitching. If you seriously dislike what we like then just tell us . Dont be a fucking coward to anon your stuff . I said what I had to say , & then you continue arguing . WOW , okay . If you continue like that , im afraid we can't be friends no longer . I already said I have an attitude & you still try to agitate me . Whats important is to love your loved ones & fuck the rest. Dont even try to talk to me about you hating kpop . You may have GEP-ers to back you up but I have one whole army with me . Fuck you , What if I said Germany music sucked & England sucked? You wouldn't like it either . I Respected what you like & kept quiet about it . Please bitch , I already accommodated you & your kpophating friends alot . I removed all the kpop related stuff . Then here you go again saying its not enough . FUCK YOU THEN . By the way you act in school ( zombie like ) , I dont think anyone would take an interest in you . Im not saying I have alot of friends ( I DONT ) , Im just saying your EQ needs to be improved because your UPTHERE ( brain ) is lacking alot of EQ.

so yes , I've said & done my part & you should too . bye.

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

2010-09-15T15:08:00.000+08:00

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself.

taken at Marina Bay Sands :) + edited .

1. Im into kpop , period.

2. I am a superjunior & SHINee stan :D

3. I love Lee Donghae , ~~is mine & shall be mine~~.

4. I talk alot , & I really can't stop talking when asked to shut up .

5. I really detest squid & some seafood , is this counted ? LOL.

6. My parents are divorced for 4 years already.

7. Im an only child .

8. I have alot of friends but no best friends .

9. I cant stand people smoking ( my father smokes /shot)

10. I only have one grandmother alive now DDD;

11. I can sing , way better than some people in choir.

12. Im humble sometimes .

13. Im sarcastic .

14. Im on 13 kpop forums & the only ones im active on is : sjworld ( superjunior ) , affxtion ( F(x) ) , soshified ( snsd ) & sfi ( shinee ) .

15. I love 30 day challenges.

30 day challenge!

2010-09-15T15:00:00.000+08:00

going to do this challenge , here instead of tumblr :3

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your Tumblr name
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned?
Day 30- Who are you?

Day 1 will be on the next post :)

new skin.

2010-09-14T23:24:00.000+08:00

hey guys . Back with a new skin because the font is just lovely ( franklin gothic medium) . LOL , favourite font of all time . Okay talking like a retard now so yeah , 11.30PM & its a weekday &a; im not sleeping yet , sigh. So , going to sleep now! TATA GUYS! Btw the cbox is at the profile so yeah , do tag me! :)

busy busy busy.

2010-09-14T22:16:00.000+08:00

I love Yuri in this smtown shot. Black Pearl Yul is back! :D

anyway , im so busy these days , only coming online for like 1-1/2 hours then going to sleep . sigh , not even going online in like the afternoon ): okay , i have srsly nothing to blog about , lifes boring , as usual urgh.

studying.

2010-09-13T22:38:00.000+08:00

I have been seriously studying for the whole damn day . Finished ALL my school homework by 3PM & then slept like a ffffff pig till 4.30PM then had chinese tuition till 6PM. then watched music bank! BoA won , was a re-run blahblahblah . Had dinner then watched E! entertainment till like 10PM . Awesome , I love E! :D Keeping up with the Kardashians is like the awesome-est show ever . Its so funny & nice ;3 I LOVE KHLOE & KOURTNEY & KIM *v* . Then watched Khloe & Kourtney take miami . nice show overall . Then they were blurting out fuck the whole time & then it was like censored . I dont get it lol censor for what . not like everyone likes to watch this kind of show . but whatever , not going to be online much , only at nights so yeah fml.

ohmybored.

2010-09-12T19:57:00.000+08:00

your daily dose of donghae!

sigh , so damn goddamn bored . Theres science left to do but Im seriously procrastinating fml . Ohgosh cant wait for school tmrw! No sarcasm intended :) You'll be like how can anyone like school but seriously only there because I must go to school & for the ~~friends~~ sluts . erm so yeah , school is actually pretty boring theres no one to spazz kpop with except esther , crystal & Haena . Speaking of Haena , jealous she has like the last part of Donghaes & Yoona's name *v* . Shes a pretty nice korean that is actually my classmate for three years yay me! so if i call her haena ( like HAE & A NA ) I'll be calling yoona x donghae how awesome is that! YAY OTP OTP OTP YOONHAE AKA HAENA LOLOLOLOOLOL *v* IM SO LAME & RANDOM . Still ...I LOVE YOU HAENA! :D

To anyone!

2010-09-12T17:12:00.000+08:00

HAHA , something special I made for yoonyul troopers @ soshified .

Recently I've been watching debut stages , & dbsks one made me miss them truckloads . Call me a new cassie , but I didn't know their debut stage was one day after christmas & that they performed with BoA .

sigh ...I want dbsk back ! :) btw, 2NE1 came back today! I love their new singles. But favourite has got to be ' Go Away' . Im like super confused because I dont know if CL died in the mv or not ;x . Still , Dara is awesome :D By the way , I downloaded desktop buddies! Updated Jjong version , Donghae chibi , Jessica & Tiffany ones , Real-face Eunhyuk & Eunhae :D they multiply so damn fast lah omfg /shot.

for one-shots.

2010-09-12T01:13:00.001+08:00

From now on , http://paintmydream.blogspot.com will be in use for my one-shots & fanfictions . This place will not be a dumping ground from now on! :D so , go to paintmydream & then read the one-shots ! please & thankyou!

hello , i love you .

2010-09-10T18:20:00.000+08:00

"I want to tell you so much , i love you .

And tell you time & time again , How much I care .

Tell me how to win your heart , for I havent got a clue.

& let me start by saying , I love you . "

im so unbelievably addicted to Glee & the Glee songs .

the sound track is seriously jjang!

& yes , trust me , its an awesome show ,

because true gleek speaking here ! ( been following the show since it came out~ )

Im so hungry ... randomgirl_98 here.

actually im not hungry , my stomach is super pain .

ffffuuuu mensy.

HAHA , someone just spelled weather as whether on my tlist.

GIRL , P6 ALREADY & EVEN THOUGH I DONT KNOW YOU ,

PLEASE BRUSH UP ON YOUR ENGLISH IT SERIOUSLY SUCKS.

what happens next?

2010-09-09T20:08:00.000+08:00

I dont get something .

since this year , so many people are starting to love kpop in my school.

Not that I hate them , but they're so fucking biased .

theres this girl with the same biases as me , she just got into kpop .

She keeps claiming jonghyun & DONGHAE in my face.

okay , like I needed to know that -_-

& I guess people here already know how obsessed I am with donghae right?

yeah I guess she knows too , but she keeps claiming him as her husband in my face.

please bitch , you wont ever stand a chance , & did I claim him in your face much less claim ? NO.

so yeah stop the crap & just walk out of my face please.

HAHA , I dont mind people liking my biases , but srsly , claiming ? HELL NO .

I'll just claim back *v*.

I get alot of haters because I stan donghae & stuff , fuck off if you srsly want to pick a fight.

& I really needed to do _|_ this in their face . ( by the way , I gave them two fingers.)

IMMATURE & NOOB KPOP FANS

I dont like new AND rude kpop fans , thats it .

if they're new I can understand , but rude ? sorry bitch no making friends ^^v.

btw , aftermath was scaary , so many noob fans anti me .

homework.

2010-09-09T18:24:00.000+08:00

now playing : My Style - Brown Eyed Girls .

"there may be many fishes in the sea , but the only fish i long for is donghae."

Bought mooncakes again!

from the mooncake fair at parkway LOL ,

damn nice /nomnom.

& I have so many homework! I left chinese math english science aka all subjects fml.

Shall not continue any further .
DONGHAE IS THE LOVE~

what an idiot you are.

2010-09-08T18:55:00.000+08:00

I want these pair of converses!

warning : rant ahead!

theres this girl in my school , she absolutely detests kpop & she often asks me to shut the fuck up

about all the kpop-related stuff . I wasnt even talking to her about kpop because I know that

she hates it . then next , I was just spazzing on facebook & then she was like , " can you

stop all the korean shit stuff can? you are damn annoying lah!" oh please , in real life,

I already shut up about kpop when im in front of you , & even virtually , I dont have

freedom? what is this? please lah , as if you will understand anything anyway.

block me lah , like I care . If you can name me 10 things on why kpop is disgusting,

I'll totally leave you alone . BUT YOU CANT , & thats why you're misunderstanding it.

If you cant appreciate the music I like , then too bad . & PLEASE DONT EVER

MAKE EXCUSES LIKE , " I DONT UNDERSTAND THE LANGUAGE"

oh please , Do i look like I do ? dumbfuck .

& you have totally no right to criticize who I idolize & stuff .

whats wrong with donghae ? nothing . But you detest kpop & him ,

you know why ? because your so-called crush isnt even as cute as him ,

isnt as talented as him & the best of all , isnt even handsome as him.

so yeah , I SMELL JEALOUSY *v*.

but whatever , such "people" shouldnt be allowed the tile of "person."

WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE A MARTIAN INSTEAD ?

Dumbgirl_98 , HELLOOOOOOO ARE YOU THERE WAKE UP YOU ARE SO DUMB :>

from , slut_98 .

HAHAHAHA ,

learned from viv 8D

→ r e a l p o s t .

2010-09-07T20:55:00.000+08:00

HAHA , this is so cute ^^v.

I just made a so-called study timetable for the whole week .

no lah , actually for tmrw & thursday .

THURSDAY IS GOING TO BE THE FUCKING BOMB !

Im having the whole house to myself , aunty & mother going to mbs to stay again fuckyeah.

anyway sneaking the com now , shes out for durian i needa start on my math .

CIRCLES /shot.

& if doing math was as easy as reblogging i'd ace it.

so whatever fuck this

we should just w a l k a w a y.

2010-09-07T15:24:00.000+08:00

now playing : 사랑사랑사랑 - Ftisland.

i actually ship these two together /shot.

megan fox ♥ .

its officially the start of the holidays for me!

no more supplementary classes but still , yeah .

im so in love with tweetdeck , its so fkin' awesome.

k , shall start on my chinese homework , ohgod.

s h i t .

2010-09-06T17:23:00.000+08:00

^ needless to say , gaga is osm.

i think im not going to use the computer for a month ,

or a few weeks since psle is coming but whatever.

so yeah , you get what im trying to say.

H I A T U S .

late.

2010-09-05T22:41:00.002+08:00

why are the two of them so cute T^T , esp hyukjae .

anyway , its like 10.35PM now , I have to go back to school tomorrow .

sigh , always supplementary & ts so goddamn boring even though I

can catch up with everything & do my work on time . I still have afew

more homeworks to go & I dont even bother completing them , fml.

ohyah , I started using tweetdeck again but it has its downsides .

the sound it makes whenever someone tweets , oh lawd . ( like whats happening now).

& imagine like when example people streamin' ss3 or something & then got the

same goddamn irritating sound LOLOL , but actually I shouldnt complain

since Im using it at my own free will ^^v.

w/e , i have late-night cravings nowadays like a pregnant woman OLOL.

& right now craving for chocolate T_T so delicious yet so calorie-increasing.

LMFAO , TATA.

sm town LA.

2010-09-05T18:20:00.000+08:00

SMTOWN BALLOON ^^v.

uh yeah , doing smtown spam , might be a long post.

starting off the spam with some sj .

omg do you see mochi next to hae ? /hearts all around.

@totallyjess tweeted a photo of her & hae together :O.

nah , this isnt really related but since he came to LA & jess is living in LA ,

i guess they met up & talked? :)

changmin & yunho ! :D although you cant really see them.

press con from left : jay - trax (?) , teuk , siwon , yunho , fany.

chyeah , siwons always praying.

omg sooyoungs english is good ! + fanys eye smile <3

& omg , heechul kissed henry ! omg violation but still hot so whatever.

needless to say .

wtfuck soy got super good seats please ! ( soy is the founder of soshified , snsds intl forum).

WAAAAAAH SO PERFECT T^T <3

seokyu is so beautiful :3 forget yongseo .

SHINee performing quasimodo & daaang , onews lookin' fine!

the program books - Actually i really like program books LOL <3

sj , LOL @ hae arms.

ring ding dong ! :)

moving on ... TRAX IS SO BEAUTIFUL :'> jay <3

omg yunho knows how to party hard ey? dj!yunho @ after party.

snsd ! DO YOU SEE YOONYUL & JETI TOGETHER ? :D

ending of genie , y'know i think this are the best genie outfits.

Sj with bonamana !

AND LOL , Hyukjae under the stage ! <3

SO CUTE LOLOL.

moving on to the after party , SHINee @ the red carpet!

pity , only 21 & above can go in thats why taemin isnt there LOLOL.

& the whole of f(x) wasnt there either LMFAO.

& woah key , diva much !

jjongs wearing the same clothes as the one that he wore at the airport LOL.

omg eunhaes damn hot omfg omfg omfg omfg .

I confirm hae not going to drink , but the rest will ^^v.

omg ! mochi looks damn hot lah ! & zhoumi too !

sungmin , why the black face DDDDDDDDD;

oops i forgot some photos ... sones are so <3 .

omg all of them are so pretty *v* . esp yoong , sica & fany. BUT ALL OF THEM ARE SO GORGEOUS!

LOL BOA <3

OTL SO DAMN JEALOUS OF SOY.

SHE GOT HER BIAS LOOKING AT HER ( YURI ) .

& DAMN HQ PLEASE.

& to end off the spam , smtown jjang!

Sorry , I was lacking f(x) pictures because they performed SO EARLY .

& BoA & Some of the csjh members too DDDDDD;

& Kangta , god :< SO SORRY .

another night.

2010-09-05T00:10:00.000+08:00

friends . <3

umm , yeah currently not in the mood to blog but whatever.

NOT GOING TO AHMA HOUSE ANYMORE UNTIL PSLES OVER ,

is this the fucking reality or what?

no seeing my cousins no more for a month are you fucking serious DDDDDD;

I love to do math actually , its so fun but yet tiring to my poor brain ):

& im sorry to all those who had high expectations of me because well,

I disappointed almost every single person i know ;_____; .

& daaaaang , my room smells like durian after I ate the snowskin mooncake WAHA.

k sorry to disappoint all of you people who hate durian , but

durian is unbelievably stinky , so dont eat durian , LEAVE THEM ALL FOR ME THANKS.

HAHHA , but still dont get why foreigners hate durian so much , why?

so fucking awesome why not at least just try it right .

OKAY , short posts from now on im so sick & tired of this urrrgh,

tumblr ends my day always <3

The geek in pink!

2010-09-03T14:57:00.000+08:00

sm artists at incheon airport on the way to smtown live @ LA !

y'know the pictures are all goddamn cute T^T <3

Esp the eunhae x minho , yoona x wookie & SHINee ones.

but homin , sooyoung & the others are cute as well <3

& THE F(X) PHOTO OMG ALL WEARING SHADES. HAHA :>

& like the smtown afterparty legal age is like what , 21?

i bet fans will go all apeshit prs .____.

& omg i told my mom about my math & she was like , " come back then talk "

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.

→ p r o b l e m s .

2010-09-02T18:21:00.000+08:00

Here i am typing away while crying my eyes out because i am thinking of how to face my mother tomorrow . I failed my math prelim , i got last in the class , my teacher humiliated me . She told me , " dont come begging me next year to teach you when you get your U grade & come back here , dont come back to tao nan to repeat , I dont want to see your face here next year , you can go to whichever school but not this one . " i felt terrible , & yes I cried. I am finally ashamed. after all these years of being poor in math , I think this one is truly a wake-up call . I really dont even know how to face my mother tomorrow , Im afraid , Scared & Frightened. I have no courage at all that I have to resort to sms-ing her my result tomorrow. I dont want to hurt her any further but I really dont have a choice. If I would , I wouldnt stay with her in the first place . All this is a joke to me now , Single Child , Parents Divorced , Parents are older than average parents that kids my age have . No siblings , alone & afraid . I dont know how to live anymore. I regretted getting into kpop at such an early age . Virtually i seem like a totally different person , but I still look the same . I scored exceptionally well for my Chinese & English , Improved for both , but my math ? dont even ask me . I havent even gotten back my science . I really really dont know how to tell my mother about my math result , she said she would skin me alive if I failed . I FAILED I REALLY FAILED & I EVEN GOTTEN MYSELF A 26 . fuck this , If I had an option , I'd live in an orphanage . Ashamed to face my parents let alone myself . I look into the mirror & say who is this ? I changed alot . My worry-free life is completely gone . I really miss having two parents living with me . My mother just told me straight to the face on a fine sunday afternoon in 2006 , " I'm going to divorce your father okay , I cannot stand his bloody face any more ." I stoned for awhile after that , & then i realised ever since I was born , My parents really didnt communicate with each other . Not to reveal this but I secretly read their divorce papers & they stated that after I was born , They stopped sleeping in the same room & they stopped being intimate & stuff & All these years , I really thought I was the bane of their marriage & somehow I really am . No one can relate to this , Especially not my school mates & that's really the problem . I have no one to pour out my feelings to . If i told my relatives , they'd talk behind my back . Ever since I started going to my grandmas place for dinner & such , My aunty kept talking behind my back about me . She said I wouldnt even complete Secondary School , She Said I would be a Dropout , okay . So this is really how people feel about me . Am i that bad ? I ask myself . I may not be a straight-A student & I may not have the right attitude but I know right from wrong & I always wonder why dont people ever learn . & my father left early . He was supposed to leave in August 06 but instead he left the house in July 06 . i suffered alot then & I went to the worst class the following year . Ever Since then , My studies dropped tremendously. I cried myself to sleep for 5 Years Already . 5 Long Years . Whatever it is , My mother would still beat me tomorrow after seeing my results & I'll just let her cane me , whatever life is such a pain in the ass.

a f f x t i o n a t e .

2010-09-02T16:07:00.000+08:00

jungli prawn aka moms addiction :>

affxtion is awesome , i wasnt really active when i first joined in 2009,

but now i think the people there are way friendly , i swear.

okay , so yeah , you get the drift.

affxtion <3

you aint shit.

2010-09-01T12:55:00.000+08:00

I HAVE ALL THE NOVELS /proud to be a gg fan.

I love traxs new song ! like seriously,

oh ! my goddess is such a nice song , trax is so damn talented . /parties in my pants.

& G.NAs song for the playful kiss ost , love so much!

okay , i dont want to blog , lazy to .

shall soak in the goodness of traxs & gnas song .

AND THANKYOU TO JAMIE SOH , YOU MADE ME REALISE THE AWESOMENESS OF MIKE POSNERS SONG ^-^

teachers day

2010-08-31T15:59:00.000+08:00

smex!god donghae ♡

Ohyeah , todays teachers day!

we did a wish board for mrs jenny tan , & she was damn touched can?

Marc even went the extra mile to bake her a chocolate cake ;>

we decorated the white board with the vanguard sheets & everything.

& then we pulled down the projector screen to block it , incase anyone ruins the surprise.

& when we went into the classroom , we said GOOD MORNING & HAPPY TEACHERS DAY MRS TAN !

then we pulled down the screen & then there was a slideshow L O L .

k , thanks for all your hard work guys :

- Claire ( Me )

- Daren

- Haena

- Marc ( thanks for the cake , materials , everything <3 )

- Vanessa

- Khee Liang

- Sean (?)

- Aries

- Felicia

- Zen

Love you guys so very much <3

All our hard work , all the days staying back everyday to chase people to write on the vanguard sheets,

everything paid off! even though it was only for one teacher , & our most favourite teacher,

at least she knows we care for her , & she cares for us too :)

omgod , mrs ftan went into classroom during recess & saw everything.

shes just jealous because we didnt do anything that special for her L O L O L .

then some RI boys came , 6I'08-07 ones,

HAHA I WAS LIKE OHFFFFUUUUUU , because i wanted to see my buddy chihwee! <3

turned out all boys , sua . ANYWAY , saw jon & the boys , wah damn fast time passes,

THEY ARE LIKE ALREADY SEC 3 OH GOD , damn tall .

& some 6H'09 boys came as well !

height difference between jtan & the boys lolol :>

dork will always be a dork.

teachers day performance was damn funny ,

i love all of the performances because theyre always lame.

ever since Primary1 till now , still forever lame & cute.

& i find some of the P4-P5-P6s damn irritating .

You know you need to guess the answers right?

k , got one teacher playing a game then suddenly when asked to answer the question ,

the pupils all blurt out the answer , like not fun anymore please -.-

immature people are immature.

still , i love my school & whenever the seniors come back,

i want to talk to them AHHAHAHAHAH , marcus didnt go back to school,

my cousin of mine O T L . SEC2 ALREADY STILL NEVER COME BACK -.-

maybe he came back afew times during secondary one , but now... LOL

ohyah , his arm fractured , did surgery on monday *O*

GET WELL SOON , COUSIN :>

sunday blues.

2010-08-29T18:05:00.000+08:00

HAHA , junhyung , you & your awkward aegyo <3

Beast cheers me up all the time , they're so fun & lively always .

oh man , im having like sunday blues , dont even feel like going to school tomorrow , have to

present like science newspaper articles in front of the whole class , but at least im prepared.

this just came out ! todays the day of the 2010 incheon korean music wave concert!

sad like im not going to be there , its almost like kpop night im sure ? HAHA , guessing.

& reference to the picture above , siwon-donghae height difference . & siwon looking

like a GQMF ey ? k , donghaes hot as usual ! :)

& snsd is so fucking gorgeous :O as always , jeti is together !

& yoonyul too omfg /flails arms like a hyper yoonyul stan.

girls , fighting for your japan debut! you guys are already

making waves all across asia , so japan wont be a problem right? :D

& i swear this guy here will never not be a GQMF , just like siwon ;>

angry & fustrated.

2010-08-28T23:18:00.000+08:00

kpop advice fangirl jjang! :D

anyway , my dads car kindof broke down before we left.

car was out of battery , then we couldnt open the boot.

my laptop all inside , then i was like damn scared.

In the end , could open then went to take ahkors car. ^-^

then im srsly pissed with my mother ,

she said my dad went to malaysia to meet his girlfriend ( what the actual fuck ) ,

helloo? he doesnt have one , & he went there for business ,

so what if you are divorced? you jealous isit ? you no boyfriend ?

okay lor , i happy :)

dont even talk to me , i swear you're going out again ( she's already out of the house btw) ,

& you're not coming back until the next morning , its like the norm already.

k , some people damn noob on tumblr , noob fangirls , dnw .

ewewewewwwwwwwwww , sorry bitch insulting me ? i dont really like that idea .

k , off to do my stuff.

s a t u r d a y .

2010-08-28T11:33:00.000+08:00

Gorgeous Fany is Gorgeous .

k , woke up earlier than expected .

woke up at around 8.45am , quite good already okay!
mother havent even come back , i think she went to the casino.

the time is 11.30am & she's not back yet.

but not to worry , on fridays she always late come back -_-

k , gotta go bathe , tricia's coming to fetch me .

like damn early kpkb.

Cant wait for later!

k , pissed .

2010-08-27T21:05:00.000+08:00

yay ftisland (Y).

oh , im pissed alright .

you dont come here & come criticise me .

immature ? really ? i dont really think so .

at least i dont act my age , unlike some people who act childish .

im not acting cool , saying im divorced facebook means im acting cool ? o r l y ?

i dont see any problem , just announcing it thats all .

yeah , im bitching here because some coward that goes by the name of passerby ( oh stupid name) ,

suprisingly hates me & wants to bitch about my posts ^-^

okay girl / boy / alien , just continue , i dont really care.

i just want to say something to cowards out there who think they're the world.

fuck yourself because you have no courage to put your name .

are you ashamed of your name ? are you ? i tell you mother then you know .

some people are just irritating , you may be someone i know ,

or you may be my best friend , but duh , i cant trust anyone .

not even my parents .

so better to be safe than sorry , they bitch about you ? then bitch back lah easy .

sorry k , im not easy to bully at all , so dont come here .

wrong place lah girl.

HAHA , i saw jamie ( lee ) on musicbank just now ! :O

haha , seems like shawols were watching mubank at the starhub centre.

jamie , i want your shirt ! blingbling ㅋㅋㅋ.

yay tmrws saturday ! :)

bye-yeom.

bitching time.

2010-08-27T16:51:00.000+08:00

so we're divorced now , you like it very much huh ? oh please , i have better wives & husbands & friends , i dont need you . you made _____ cry , when you're obviously supposed to do your work as you're a prefect , you said she broke a promise? o r l y ? i dont really think so . you know that she's a perfectionist , yet you still call her up & plan not to do your work ? she did her work because she is a good student , what about you ? please do not be so complacent even though you're good in your studies . being good in studies isnt everything you know ? if you have high IQ & low EQ , i guarantee you , you cant survive in this world . & you keep saying oh okay to me whenever i ask you something , wtf is that kind of attitude ? im older than you , be it a few months , please be more respectful to me , to me , you & your attitude is one of the bitchiest i've ever seen . you dont know that the girls in our class dont even support you by not doing your work , yet ____ still tries to make you happy . she's your best friend thats why , too clingy for me sorry . the reason why i didnt support your decision to not do your work is that i think i am in the right . the other girls too , thats why they didnt support you in doing so. doing your work is the first step to becoming a good student & just because you are always the number one student doesnt mean you can do this . look , i know we need to revise , but i did & i also managed to do my work . and you ? sureeee you revise but do you do your work even if the deadline is in two days time ? fuck no you dont . you pissed me off from the start , you said I irritated you enough , but have you ever spared a thought for me ? your friend ? oh please bitch , you made my blood pressure rise till idk what already okay . sorry dude , im not made to please you . You think you can make me your so-called slave ? hell naw.

Let me tell you something , YOU MADE ____ CRY ALOT OF TIMES ALREADY , YOU DONT KNOW THAT ? HA , some kind of friend you are. & arent you the rudest slut in the world ? i talked to you & yet you still reply me with a okay , since the start you've been saying okay all your life . I know you have nothing to say but since you're my friend , well once my friend , i obviously bothered to tell you my personal things. you were the first one i told when my grandmother passed away , ____ bothered to write a simple sorry on my wall , & you ? where were you ? you informed them , but you ? i know you called me , & i really appreciated that . I teared at your phonecall , i was really touched . other things aside , i think you're rude , downright rude & i think that no one deserves your friendship . NO ONE. k , i made myself clear. I dont care if you read this , if you do , this serves as a warning to you . I will never talk to you , nor will i be associated with you in any way ever again . because this whole thing was a huge blow . rude & yet still rude rude rude . sorry , no thanks .

im bitchy but not as bad you thanks ^-^

back with another post.

2010-08-27T15:12:00.000+08:00

now tell me if this is my life lol.

anyway , ignore the last post , that was superfuckcrap because i was spazzing lolol,

& i didnt format my post , so looks disgusting ide.

btw , i've survived without the holy internet for four days ,

isnt that amazing ? LOLOLOL , for someone who slacks in front of the computer everyday.

i studied ALOT , & it paid off , improved for english section B , im confident this time can get 70something for el paper 2.

now i cant wait for math , chinese & science omfg.

nervous & excited , mixed feelings k.

but english forever best subject , lets hope i can get 85-above for english ^-^

LOL THIS IS MY MISERABLE LIFE.

JJONG BB I KNOW THE FEELING WAHAH <3

k , TATA-

KPOP NIGHT OMFG.

2010-08-27T14:39:00.000+08:00

ohmygod , i just heard about kpop night ohgod.
ohdammmmmn , why srsly couldnt they add sj ?
now i have to decide for my ss3 & kpopnight.
SNSD , SHINee , Bigbang , FTisland , Infinite.
ALL GOING TO BE THERE OKAY , SNSD , BIGBANG , INFINITE FIRST TIME IN SINGAPORE.
i need to go siol , damn suay my mother say only one concert , DAMN.
;_______; im in like a fucking huge dilemma right now -_-
NVM , SS3 THEN SS3 OKAY . SS3 SS3 SS3.
BUT KPOP NIGHT...JONGHYUN , YOONA , SEUNGRI , MINHWAN , L .
I NEED TO SEE YOU GUYS OHGOD .

g l e e .

2010-08-23T19:28:00.000+08:00

YESYESYESYES , Cant wait ! (Y) .

Gleek Gleek Gleek Gleek - Talking here ;>

Ohyes! cant wait for ftisland comeback as well ,

minhwan , i'll wait for you okay ? 8D

i have no homework for this wholeweek ,

& im going to revise my situational writing & compo materials after dinner.

& ...haena wants to divorce me on facebook isnt that great ? ;_____;

idk why lah , she's moodswingy most of the time .

like me ^-^ tian shen yi dui .

HAESICA OMG /shoots love arrows.

LOL I THINK THEY'RE CUTE SOMETIMES ^-^

yoonhae is just sexy though , but still , het otp is yoonhae ! :)

im starting to ship jjongyul too !^-^

yuri : give me that waterbottle.

jjong : what if i say no ? /backsoff.

jjong : since you want it , i'll give it to you . /pours water.

yuri : bitch please , no one messes around with me /pours on jjong.

AND OMFG DO YOU SEE HAE LOOKING AT JJONG :O OTP OTP OTP.

Donghae : Oh that looks like fun i think i'll do it too /pours.

& look at pumpkin just staring like a cute bunny at jjong lololol.

DONGHAE & JONGHYUN ARE SEXY TOGETHER - TRUFAX.

jjong : whatever im still badass. /dances .

LOLOLOLOLOL SMTOWN <3

fml.

2010-08-22T18:01:00.001+08:00

okay im bored , enjoy this while you can .

BYE .

im am such an idiot .

2010-08-22T16:46:00.000+08:00

this guy always kills me okay.

i totally deleted the smtowncon post yesterday .

i was too lazy to type everything out , go to my tumblr for picspam .

i have no mood to blog , & i keep dragging on & on .

smtowncon was really nice!

loved the yoonhae moments , the eunhae moments & changmin-kyu moments.

ofcourse , krystal's & sica's tiktok was smex!overload okay.

i was like , woah :O

LMAO , anyway , it was really cute.

like why cant smtown be held in like sg or my or somewhere near southeastasia,

give more love lah! but i bet the singapore will have an earthquake ,

& then we'll all shake & then die :|

OHYEAH , i was really worried for jeti yesterday.

fany was injured during genie & then she didnt perform gee with the other 8 .

then sica was exhausted ;______________;

OKAY , PRAY FOR THEM <3

& YOONYUL WAS SO REAL OMG OMG .

THIS SFM.

OKAY IM OUT.

finally!

2010-08-20T19:51:00.000+08:00

jjoonvirus is amazing ! :)

love you bb /huggles.

seriously , blogging is becoming such a chore ,

no one ever tags / visits my blog anymore ,

i feel like this is wasting my fucking time .

oh bitch isnt replying me , just cause i acted as an anon ^-^

ha what a loser , sorry you were qualified too bitchy thats why i wrote about you .

sorry bitch ! :D

lol she goes on tumblr like every single fucking night thats.. lmao like me 8D

i reblog like every thing she reblogs , just like how ____ always reblogs from me ah.

lol who cares if she's fourteen .

AND BARB WIRE IS

k w o n j i y o n g

2010-08-18T20:49:00.000+08:00

happy birthday k w o n j i y o n g .

i love you so much :3 bigbang's leader , rapper , & the one who made most of bb's songs!^-^

shipping seungri / gdragon forever! :)

tomorrow's the first official day of the psle !

psle oral tmrw yo , chinese! excited max .

kekeke , i should get studying :D

BYE YEOM .

not in the mood to blog.

2010-08-15T18:04:00.000+08:00

im srsly not in the mood to blog , no inspiration .

ss3 was amazing , totally awesome okay .

i listened through livestream , missed the yog opening ceremony just for this ~

sj ss3 presscon before concert , hae bb is looking fineeeee.

& HYUK TOO :)

during cooking?cooking! they dressed up as veggies & fruits :O

so many kinds of cute & adorable okay!~

i love my onion hae & beansprout hyuk , aka towgay.

YOU KNOW HOW LONG I WAITED FOR THIS HAIR ;____;

ohyes , beyonhae is sexy ! 8D

his legs *_________* /dies.

i need full hq picture of this okay.

AND TODAY'S SEOUL SS3 ,

DONGHAE KISSED A FANGIRL ON HER HAND FML FML FML FML.

URGH BRB CRYING SO MUCH ;________;

I love you too \m/ .

ME & SHIA ( @fanyism ) ARE GOODJOB ,

SHIA I DONT THINK YOU'D BE READING THIS BUT ,

I THINK WE SHOULD BE GOOD FRIENDS .

BECAUSE , WE ARE GOODJOB.

Bye.

mbs!

2010-08-13T23:33:00.000+08:00

right now , at marinabaysands hotel !^-^

hellohello , saw BEAST & 4minute ,

not exactly saw, i only heard them ey ;____;

nevermind , junhyung bb is always in my heart ,

if i can go to the airport tmrw , then i'll be happy already~

heheheheh , the service here sucks though ,

like serious hell , i tell you gdit.

plus , the jacuzzi has like big problems,

first of all , there's too much fucking chlorine ,

it went into my eye & idk why suddenly turned red ,

then i started coughing , the water's hot btw.

husbie's new hair !^-^

super hot right , i know so .

tmrw's supershow3 in Seoul !

cant wait for fancams & esp anticipating them performing Chu~ & Bang!

i hope hae gets to be amber & nana , if he ever gets to be nana :3

LMAO , i just hope hae bb gets to perform Bang!

omfg , just found out that kenny junior likes geng OMFG ,

like the biggest news in sj news in taonan prs!

first guy to like sj member in our school.

so far updated list here :

me - Donghae , Eunhyuk , Kyuhyun , Sungmin ( ALL OKAY ALL .)

esther - Donghae ( fml lol ) , kibum , kyuhyun.

cheyenne - Donghae ( fml x2 ) , Eunhyuk ( fml x3 ) , Shindong.

jamie - sungmin , eunhyuk ( if im not wrong) .

vanessa ( crystal's friend ) - Siwon , hangeng .

shinee fans in our school :

me - jonghyun , key , onew ( OT5 = all .)

esther - Minho .

haena - taemin .

crystal - All like me .

susila - Key , Onew .

Jamie - Taemin.

cheyenne - jonghyun ( fml ) , onew , key.

i kindof forgot who like shinee alr , shizz.

anyway , the more , the better.

bye-yeom.

beast.

2010-08-12T22:10:00.000+08:00

i love you , yong junhyung @Joker891219.

your facial expressions , so so hot!

if i can catch a glimpse of you & kiki tmrw , i'll die a happy fangirl :3

junhyung oppa , saranghaeyo ! :)

ilu sfm , now im like totally into donghae , junhyung & jonghyun okay!

lol , after their dong , jun & jong , all start with h :O

nvmmm , ilu guys ! you three , make my life complete okay :D

this picture , so much .

shindong looks hot here ! with his shades , keke .

& ALL MY BIASES ON THE FLOOR (Y).

KyuEunHae , ofcourse i loveeeeeeee.

@Donghae861015 , @AllRiseSilver & @GaemGyu ,

you three too , <3

bytheway , that girl is uber cute !

my child with hae , okay , the father of my children ^-^

ARGH I LOVE YOU SO MUCH HUBBY , TOO MUCH ALREADY OKAY

BUT TOO MUCH IS NEVER ENOUGH , SHALL LOVE YOU MORE ^-^

AT THE EXPENSE OF MY FRIENDS K , ILU SFM.

Yoonhae :>

2010-08-12T19:12:00.000+08:00

Ot5 forever :>

okay byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ;D

jongkey ? jongyu ? cant pick.

2010-08-11T19:31:00.000+08:00

jongkey still exists in my life , no doubt.

i love both jongkey & jongyu ,

but actly , jongkey is still #1 to me , forever & always ,

i cant change it to jongyu , i cant.

im sorry emily , but ever since i was into shinee , jongkey already existed .

& i'll forever ship jongkey , no interactions , or there's interactions , forever otp.

its hard to get used to jongyu , its like im betraying key or something.

& lol , i kindof felt like he knew i changed my otp or something , that feeling irks me too much.

sooo ummm , jongkey forever .

i'd rather onkey or ontae but jongyu is still one of my favourites.

but jongkey forever .

im sorry you guys , i just cant seem to get used to it , i cant , i really cant.

urgh , this is fustrating , onew you're my 2nd bias & key , you're my 3rd.

i know im being selfish , but i really do wish for jongkey to be my otp again.

come back plrs , jongkey ? i miss you guys.

& onhyun ( WHICH I PREFER CALLING JJONG X ONEW ) , i love you guys too.

tmrw's school.

2010-08-10T20:39:00.000+08:00

aigoo , taeyeon is goddamn cute okay!

SO TOMORROW'S ALREADY SCHOOL.
well thats fast , it only seemed like friday one day ago.
anyway , i've done almost all my homework ,
i only have my english to do , which is awesome cuhs i love english :)

i feel so weird today , actually most days i feel uber weird , deek why.
cant wait for school tomorrow \m/
even though there's science period AND math tuition after that fml.

stupid day.

2010-08-09T23:03:00.000+08:00

i was wrong , today isnt a good day for me at all.
cried buckets after reaching home , i'll have to get away from everyone from now ,
people dont like me , they hate me , yes i love to have negative thoughts , urgh,
i think friendships are such a pain , i'd rather have no friends than an unloyal friend ,
thankyou , & i'd rather be a loner than a retard who begs for forgiveness , its not
worth it , really . for something you havent done , dont say sorry . it downgrades
you real bad . okay i'll shutup now & do my work than bathe, this sucks .

national day

2010-08-09T12:51:00.000+08:00

national day today!

btw shinee is superhot in the one fine day photobook!

zomg gotta go , be back to edit !

doing the unthinkable .

2010-08-09T00:09:00.000+08:00

12am right now , ideek , i always like to post late in the night.

tomorrow's national day ! ^-^ /feeling patriotic.

This year's national day being held at the padang after like 4years .

OHYEAH , today the yogflame passed by my house , like super loud the music ,

& there was like two buses , one red , one blue .

so many teenaged volunteers , lol amusing because they were shouting real loud.

ANYWAY ,

ITS 12.05AM , MEANS ITS ALREADY AUGUST9TH ,

MEANS ITS MY DEAR SINGAPORE'S BIRTHDAY!

45 Already leh , old liao ;A; SOBS.

Trend #SINGAPOREHUATAH on twitter okay , singaporeans?

im feeling really patriotic ideek why , lol first time here.

OKAY , BYE BRB CRYING OVER SG'S BIRTHDAY ;A; TMRW'S GOING TO BE FUNFUNFUNFUNFUNFUNFUN AT FELICIA'S HOUSE .

late now.

2010-08-08T00:19:00.000+08:00

its late right now. im tired & im totally in a daze.

ahma house was kindof fun , feeling moody right now though.

mother got like fucking drunk , ideek , too much wine i guess.

listening to marry u , calm right now.

tinychatted with fariza for afew minutes just now,

then she abandoned poor me to watch her fairly odd parents ,

aww far , you're too cute ! :3

currently worrying about supershow3 ,

whether i get my desired seats or not .

because felicia said if she let her sponsor book the seats ,

im going to have to seat with yvette & sandra , which will be awkward & i'll have no way to scream for baby.

thats sad i know , hae wont be able to hear me ;A; SOBS.

ps : me & felicia love the word - FAPPING.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.